party people

a few weeks ago we had a party.

 

 it hadn't rained here in ages... i mean, we are talking record breaking drought.  then JD and i decided to host a little BBQ get together for our friends.  the day was hot and sunny.  we ran around the house working on getting last minute projects done.  i made mini peanut butter cupcakes with chocolate frosting and sprinkles (or jimmies if you are from philly).  the burgers and hot dogs were ready for the grill, the watermelon was sliced, the keg was tapped, the first guests arrived.  just as we were pouring our first beers and sitting down with the guests... it began to rain.

ME:  "Are you freaking kidding me... it hasn't rained in months and then i have 30 people in my yard and it rains??? WTF????"

the food was all out on the tables, bean salad, watermelon salad with feta, the burgers were grilled, the buns were out...  i rushed to cover the food...

i then realized that i was the only one stressed by the rain.  the rest of the guests just went on like it wasnt' raining... i think that actually welcomed the change.  they continued to eat and talk in different groups.  some moved under the big tree in the corner of the yard others moved in a bit closer to the patio umbrella, but for the most part not much changed.

this story sort of sums up the past couple months for me.  i feel like i have been running around like the sky is falling and i am beginning to wonder if it is me who is creating the drama in my own life?  yeah things have changed, crappy things have happened, but JD and i are still here fighting through it.  i think i need to be more like my guests and move under the tree and wait until the storm blows over.  right now, still, i am running around trying to make sure things don't get wet.

i need to find my tree, my spot to sit this one out.  this doesn't mean i am giving up, it just means that i am going to try harder to go with the flow and wait for our storm to be over.  i know that there is a silver lining in the clouds out there somewhere, now i just have to wait and hope.